Trust ? Verify .

So, once I start working. My life getting useless. I feel so tiring. Even much more tiring. And I have learn something new too. Friendship, other stuff ? Aye. Of cause that will be learned. You will never know a real friend will become fake. You will never know when will it be. Never known to be it.

$$ JUST THINK MONEY $$

I just thought work is just work. I work is for money and that's all. Not to betray anyone or saying people. I work, I did say people or backstab. That's hundred percent. I just want to do what I have to do. Although I am a lazy person. But I do thing finish. You try do something behind my back, you of cause get something great from me. You think I like to bully people ? Hello ~ I don't bully people. Well, tell me. What you guys want me to do then ? Help you guys everyday collect rubbish, throw rubbish ? Help you guys answering calls and entertain them ? Want me to update wall chart and attendance files ? Place those flyers which don't have already ? Buy you guys food, lunch, dinner ? Be a good person and easy bullied ? Or I can't use computer ?, in first place ?. Well, since you guys dislike me job attitude. And say my attitude not good. What you want me change to ? To just now what I said ? Goodtobulliedgirl93.

- Collect and clear rubbish .
- Update wall chart and attendance files .
- Mark attendance and call parents .
- Answering calls and entertain customer .
- Something more I have to do ?

How I wish you guys can tell me straight my face say, I am doing wrong thing if I really did. Telling I have to do this and that it don't help. Cause I also need magic words ? You need it, I want it. Monkey see, monkey do. I can't use computer to play for a little while ? Than why can you stomp, or use other stuff ??? I also done my things than use. JUST WHY NOT ? Is there something wrong with it ? I seriously have enough. Enough.

Half , a smile ?

Just eversince, I start work. Nothing good been going on. Nothing good. A half truth, like half a brick, is always more forcible as an argument than a whole one. It carries better. How can I ever trust someone ? No, not a single. Treat her like one and only friend. But, she just got other friend. Friends if to detail. A lie can travel half way around the world while the truth is putting on its shoes. To state the facts frankly is not to despair the future nor indict the past. The prudent heir takes careful inventory of his legacies and gives a faithful accounting to those whom he owes an obligation of trust. Just want to do what to do .

I not only have half face. I have full face for you to insult.

You think I like to push my job to you? I never want to do that. You can say I am trying. Facts, is just trying to. But never want to do that. Never. She knows I straight forward. But I didn't mean to hurt anybody else. I don;t mean it. If I do hurt your feeling. Tell me, I apologies to you. Wrong ? Or you trying to say I mistaken from start ? I did not mess the situation crazy up. Hope I can leave it. But when I face , I start to have fear feeling. Fright feeling, fagg. I try to be brave. No, turn to bravery . I want to be this what I need to be.

I try to face it with much more brave

I want change my job. Boss h2h talk to me. And change my contract . He say he want to change my contract at that time, I was shock to hear that . I ask why . He told me, cause I catch my work thing up very fast, do things very good and smooth. I'm not a faster learner. But maybe I am ? Don't know . I tell him, let me think about it. He just say, I name the digit to you. I see the amount he gave me. I was okay with it . Although impossible to give me 2k right . Lady boss suggest every three month or half a month change my contract and amount I bring home . They ask me only my case is special not to tell anyone. I, was, okay. After that, boss ask me. Do you remember on the blahblahblah day. That night. A teacher was talking to parents and why you guys when to switch off ? I like not my fault . I did not. You should ownself ask those people out there. He told me to ask her don't do that next time. I straight tell boss. Boss, you tell her yourself. I am not her senior. Although I say, you know what will she think who am I ? Bossy uh . So, what happen, don't know. Sigh. I don't betray. Just nobody care to believes. True to who ? My ass .

"Depend upon yourself. Make your judgement trustworthy by trusting it."

Trash . You want slap long ago right ? You already give attitude to me . You take me as sucky long ago. Sigh. You think I don't understand Chinese word well so you can say that or post it ? Computer is awesome you know. Ikr. Google translate . Hell yeah. Although I not good to understand what you talking about. But connection. Have the hint. Together it join. Shooting . I killed. Brain shot. Just right my back . Ahead. Gone. 

So be it. MYSELF.