Arizona
Well , felt that . Yesterday and today . Wasn't any special day for me . I feel nothing . Nothing is good news =l Sorry .
Yesterday , was so excited that I will have a fun day . When packed . Result seem , bad . And I feel really bad . I don't want to ruin everything . I seriously feel so bad . I was so so so guilty . And , I just can't explain to him . I mean , just dunno what to tell him . And don't know when's th right time . Plans getting bad . But , we just never think much . Till . End th plan already . Next , we go slack . Chit chat . Till home . Next day , errm . I thought it will be fine . But , ... WORSE can . I seriously , don't want to face them at all . Is totally hurt me . Feel like crying out loud . I can't be such a big baby girl keep crying right ? Gotta slove it ! Only problem is , one way , drift . And I had plan . Everything . Thru myy future too . So start will be , keep on busy . Reject all dates meet up . Work . Study . Let time keep files . Fly as fast as it can . Faster fly one round . This year , time files fast . Shock . But how I wish it fly even faster . Cause I don't want this feeling like yeaterday happen or today also . I don't know must I say , just lucky or not . Or th answer is out already . And I must face it ? I don't know . I feel everything lost . And just hope back to what I haven't do . Stop wasting time . Move on . Run over th line . Don't day dream . But , I just always feel lost . Totally don't know what to do . He stepped into myy life already . And can say use to it . I been thinking . Damn carefully . Answer is . Give up . Let go =\ Whatever . I don't know this matter will last how long . And will end at when . Scare is , forever . Seriously . Damn scare . Scare I will regret . Scare I will be alone . Scare I lost again . Scare it won't be able fixed back . All myy smile , everybody see , yarh , happy one . When I am alone . I am so timid one . Maybe you guys will see that I am a strong . Just so easily off . But , I can't . Was just , hiding only . Tell me , what should I do now ?
Shawnshawn , 6th monthsary (: Although , I can't get anything for you . Nor you to me . I don't want anything . Just , I don't want see them again . You saw alreay . Morning , I greet them . You know what they give me that face ?! FARK ! I hate people ignore me . Cause of you . You say never mind . They treat me good . YOUR HEAD . Actually , you been lying . I just don't want say . But sometimes , you tell me th truth . I don't know what to do . I don't know must I believe you or not . I just hope , I not . Sorry . Happy is , ... You rather we stay till 00:00 ` Grin*
Now , I duper hate myy life . Serious , FML . FMLTTC , TTM ! All myy happiness is gone . Just for YOU . I gave up everything . How silly me . FARK . Feel like punching up again . I WANT EVERYTHING GO AWAY LAH ! FOFFA LAH ! FOFFAASAP ! KNNBPCB . NNBCCB . Sibei annoying by YOU keep staying on myy mind . Damn irritating . FARKOFF OF MYY LIFE LAH ! You make me feel lost when you're gone . Feel lost when you just so easy throw me aside . Feel lost when you just say a word that seriously damn hurt . Just YOU . I feel lost so easily . I can't be strong anymore . YOUR FAULT ! Whatever . Soon back to sleep . Lights off early today . Whole afternoon , mum give me food . Just don't get it why I don't eat . ARSE ! But ofcus I won't spoilt my tummy . I ate some snack (;
Was touched by you once again =l Having a bad dream . Just of that my beloved THUMBDRIVE ! Idiot . Lucky , is there . ROAR ! Don't leave me again . I shall get you back tomorrow night (I take it haven't pass12mn) .
☐6days ☐6weeks ☑6months ☐6years .
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